Pillow Fight

At night, I am usually a side sleeper.  I tend to take my pillow and turn it to the side like this gal in this picture…. (I really need to rethink my pajama’s, this chick has a better style than me!) Through the night, I usually take the pillow with me from side to side…


If you are a new Mom or a repeat Mom, you might be able to connect with me on this little pillow fight that happens almost nightly for me.  It tends to wear off after a few weeks after having a baby but always happens!

I have been asleep for about an hour, maybe less, but I am in a VERY deep sleep.  Holding my pillow tight and feeling very comfy.  Almost instantly, I wake up in a down right PANIC and am usually sweating!  I’m wrestling my pillow and feeling around in the dark because I am certain in my ‘barely awake state of mind’ that one of my children is laying there beside me (usually I am scared its my newborn)  and is hiding under the pillow and possibly suffocating or somewhere under the covers and unable to call out for help.  Its been awhile since this pillow fight has actually woken Erik up but I know I have had him wondering what in the world I am doing, especially when I shake him and ask him where our kids are and he tries to explain that everyone is in their beds.  I am feeling around and tapping my pillow to find my baby…. It takes me a good while to realize that everyone is sleeping soundly in their beds and breathing just fine and that my pillow temporarily was playing tricks on me. 

Has anyone else woken up to this frantic crazy moment or is it just me?  This is exactly the reason why I don’t like having my kids sleep in the bed with us!  I’d be a complete basket case worrying about rolling over or floppin’ my pillow around with me when I roll over.  Needless to say, between this crazy time in the night and waking up to feed, I’m one pooped puppy!!
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Amber said...

Ok - I like that you posted this because although I am not a mother, the whole idea of co-sleeping or really sleeping with a newborn in a giant bed with blankets and pillows gives me ONE GIANT ANXIETY ATTACK.

I can't even handle having a baby sleeping in a crib with a loosely knit blanket that is stuffed in the corner. Seriously, whenever I babysit for my family with the baby - I'm up in her room every half hour checking to see if she's breathing.

I'm not sure what it is, maybe it's because I've seen so many videos on SIDS and stuff from day care training that it's just made me super paranoid? Maybe it's something that will go away once I have a kid of my own? I don't know...all I know is I have to bite my tongue every time I see or hear someone who does co sleeping or lets their baby sleep on its stomach or in a swing...etc. etc.

Am I Really Grown Up? said...

Annabelle has never slept in the same bed as us. I just didn't need anyone else in the bed with me and the anxiety of maybe smothering her, had me in a panic. More than 5 years later and she still doesn't think my bed is for anything other than hiding under the sheets.

Connie said...

We call that pillow the cock block. :)

Shawn said...

I'm a tummy sleeper, which does wonders for my lower back and neck issues!

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time sleeping, you know the drill sleep while they sleep!

I need to see updated pictures!

A Randomlicious Blog for the Soul said...

I have been so out of it! I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up with what's going on with you! Did you have your baby already? It seems like you shouldn't have had it yet!!! But who knows. I've been out of the loop for a while now. But that's funny reading about the pillow fight. My pillow wasn't as big as that picture so maybe that's why I never had the same pillow fight experience. I know that when our baby was a newborn she slept in the middle of us on our little queen sized bed, my husband and I slept on the very edge of the bed and I didn't move the entire night after she was born. But we also had her in a little bed type thing it had sides and something to keep her secure so I knew we weren't going to roll over her. I loved that thing. But she didn't sleep with us long, I can't handle that, it's already too cramped with just me and my husband! LOL

Before I had the baby I couldn't sleep at all forget pillow fighting..there was no deep sleeping at 6-9 months preggo!

I hope it gets better for you soon, no sleep = no fun!

Miss S. said...

Mine is never the pillow, it's always the "ghost cries." You wake up and think is the baby crying? Is the monitor on? Your heart is pounding & you're dripping sweat, but all is fine.

Jessica said...

I sleep the exact same way (minus the baby issue of course). I must have my pillow under my arm at all times. Even if I lay on my back I have one arm around my pillow. It's completely deformed and misshapen from washings and me scrunching it up but I love it lol. Sounds like I have issues doesn't it? Lol

Hope the pillow scares get better for you. I couldn't sleep with a baby I'm the bed either. I would never get any sleep because I would be constantly worried!

Impulsive Addict said...

Wow Janette! That never happened to me before but I'm with Amber. I could never co-sleep for this reason. Other people love it and I respect them for it but I would wake up nightly just like you did.

I also like what Connie said because my pregnancy pillow was definitely a cock blocker!

I hope this stops happening to you and you can get some good sleep. When do you have to go back to work?

Emmy said...

Yea- I would not sleep well if I tried to co- sleep as I would be too freaked out

Rachel said...

Haha...this reminds me of a time when I fell asleep in a big chair with Olive a frantically woke up asking my husband where the baby was...he looked at me all crazy and said "you're holding her." Your mind does crazy things!

Liberty said...

I used to sleep on the floor in front of Max's crib to make sure he was ok... Freakishly wierd I know. I blame it on the fact that I was young, lol. I think mosts moms have some type of experience like you have had. It's just the part of us that makes us protect our family and keep our babies safe :)